Meghan Markle ta ce "Ba ta son zama da rai kuma" lokacin da take sarauta

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Yayin hirar da aka yi tsakanin Oprah da tsohon Duke da Duchess na Sussex, Meghan Markle bai hana komai ba - gami da cikakkun bayanan lafiyar kwakwalwarta a lokacin da take sarauta.

Tsohon Duchess ya bayyana wa Oprah cewa duk da cewa "kowa (a cikin gidan sarauta) ya yi maraba da ita," rayuwa a matsayin wani ɓangare na masarauta ta kasance kaɗaici da ware. Don haka, a gaskiya ma, wannan kashe kansa ya zama "madaidaicin haske da gaske kuma mai ban tsoro da tunani akai-akai," Markle ya gaya wa Oprah. (Mai Alaka: Neman Lafiyar Halittu Ya Dawo Da Ni Daga Gaɓar Kisa)

"Na ji kunyar faɗin hakan a lokacin kuma ina jin kunyar in yarda da shi ga Harry. Amma na san cewa idan ban faɗi hakan ba, to zan yi," in ji Markle. "Ba na son in sake rayuwa."

Kamar yadda Markle ya bayyana a cikin hirar (kuma duniya ta gani a cikin kanun labarai), da sauri ta tafi daga ganinta a matsayin sabon memba mai ban sha'awa na gidan sarauta zuwa bayyana a matsayin mai kawo rigima, mai ban sha'awa. A lokacin da ta bude batun binciken da ta fuskanta a kafafen yada labarai na Burtaniya, Markle ta bayyana wa Oprah cewa tana jin cewa tana da matsala ga dangin sarauta. Sakamakon haka, ta ce ta "tunanin (kashe kansa) zai warware komai ga kowa." Markle ta ce a karshe ta je sashen kula da albarkatun dan adam na masarautar don neman taimako, amma sai aka gaya mata cewa babu abin da za su iya yi domin ita "ba memba ce a ma'aikatar da ake biyan ta albashi ba." Ba wannan kadai ba, amma Markle ta ce an gaya mata cewa ba za ta iya neman taimako ga lafiyar kwakwalwarta ba saboda yin hakan "ba zai yi kyau ga cibiyar ba." Sabili da haka, a cikin kalmomin Markle, "Babu abin da aka taɓa yi." (Mai Alaƙa: Sabis na Kiwon Lafiyar Lantarki Mai Kyau Wanda ke Ba da Kyau da Tallafi Mai Ruwa)

Har ila yau, Markle ta tuna yadda yake da wahalar ɓoye fafutukarta da lafiyar hankalinta a idon jama'a. "Dole ne mu je wannan taron a Royal Albert Hall bayan na gaya wa Harry cewa ba na son rayuwa kuma," in ji Oprah. "A cikin hotunan, na ga yadda tsintsiyar hannunsa ke damke nawa. Muna murmushi, muna yin aikinmu. A cikin akwatin Royal, lokacin da fitilu suka kashe, ina kuka kawai."

Kafin ta raba abubuwan da ta samu da tunanin kashe kai, Markle ta bayyana wa Oprah cewa ko a farkon lokacin sarautarta, ta sha wahala daga kaɗaici. Ta ce tana so ta je cin abincin rana tare da abokanta amma a maimakon haka dangin sarauta sun umurce ta da ta yi kasa-kasa kuma ana sukar ta da "kasancewa ko'ina" a cikin kafofin watsa labarai - kodayake, a zahiri, Markle ta ce an ware ta a ciki, a zahiri. , na tsawon watanni.

"Na bar gidan sau biyu a cikin watanni huɗu - Ina ko'ina amma babu inda nake yanzu," ta gaya wa Oprah na wancan lokacin a rayuwarta. Kowa ya damu da kimiyyan gani da hasken wuta - yadda ayyukanta za su kasance - amma, kamar yadda Markle ta raba wa Oprah, "shin akwai wanda ya yi magana game da yadda yake ji? Domin a yanzu ba zan iya jin kadaici ba."

Kadaici ba wasa bane. Lokacin da aka samu na dindindin, zai iya haifar da sakamako mai tsanani. Jin kadaici zai iya rinjayar kunna dopamine da serotonin (masu watsawa da ke sa ku ji dadi) a cikin kwakwalwar ku; yayin da kunna su ke raguwa, za ku iya fara jin ƙasa, ƙila tawaya, ko damuwa. A taƙaice: kadaici na iya ƙara haɗarin ɓacin rai.

A game da Markle, kadaici ya zama kamar babban abin da ke haifar da tunanin kisan kai da ta ce ta dandana. Ko da kuwa daidai yanayin, ko da yake, abin nufi shi ne, kamar yadda kyawu kamar yadda rayuwar wani ke iya gani a farfajiya, ba za ku taɓa sanin abin da za su iya fafatawa da su a cikin gida ba.Kamar yadda Markle ya gaya wa Oprah: "Ba ku da masaniyar abin da ke faruwa ga wani a bayan ƙofofi. Ku tausaya wa ainihin abin da ke iya faruwa."

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