Wannan Abinda Warkarwa Take Kama - Daga Ciwon Ciki zuwa Siyasa, da Zuban Jininmu, Wutar Zuciya

Abokina D da mijinta B sun tsaya ta wurin sutudiyo na. B yana da ciwon daji Wannan shine karo na farko dana ganshi tunda ya fara chemotherapy. Rungumarmu a wannan ranar ba kawai gaisuwa ba ce, tarayya ce.

Dukanmu mun yi kuka. Kuma sai kawai muka zauna a ƙasa, sauƙi da sauri. Munyi magana game da shawarar da za'a yanke. Karin hawaye. Kuma kamar koyaushe, dariya. B mugunta ne mai ban dariya. Kuma ba'a da tsayi da kyau. Kuma a ranar yana fama da karyewar sa. Jin saukar da kai, kamar ƙattai kawai ke iya.

Tsakanin gajiya, da fata a kan ƙasusuwa, da rayuwa tare da yanke shawara game da mutuwa, yana da matukar wuya a ga idan kuna cin nasarar yaƙin ko a'a.

Fata koyaushe yana da wahalar hangowa cikin baraguzan jirgin. Amma yana nan koyaushe.

Tsakanin rahotanninsa na dunkulewa a cikin yanayin tayi na tsawon kwanaki a lokaci guda, da jin tsananin kaunar matarsa ​​fiye da kowane lokaci, da kuma tafiya cikin lahira kanta, na kai ga tabbatacciyar gaskiyar da zan iya samu. Ya kasance da bege kuma ya kasance gaskiya. Na ce ...

"Ina tsammanin wannan shine yadda warkarwa ke kama."

Mun yi shiru na ɗan lokaci. Babu kara. “Ka sani,” ya girgiza, yana jan zuciyarmu tare yayin da ta bayyana a gare shi, “Ina tsammanin wannan shine yadda warkarwa yake. ”

Shin ba koyaushe haka bane? Ko wani kumburi yana kokarin lalata jikinmu, ko kuma kiyayya tana lalata jikin siyasa. Ko muna jan hankalinmu har zuwa mataki na gaba na tsabta - {textend} baya warkewa koyaushe yana cutarwa m? Shin ba zamu zama ba za'a gane mu ba yayin da muke sake tattara bayanan mu?

Na yi rawa, na bayyana, na yi addu'a, na yi rubutu, na yi fushi, kuma na yi imani da hanyar fita daga azaba iri-iri. Kuma abin ban mamaki ne don jin kaina ya zama ni fiye da kowane lokaci. Amma tsakanin-lokacin waɗancan lokutan iko wani mummunan firgici ne da jin haushi. Kasusuwa cikin miya. Ta'aziyya cikin hargitsi. Alkawura cikin rushewa.

Wannan shine yadda warkarwa take.

Waraka ya munana kamar yadda “warkarwa” yake da kwazazzabo. Idan ba mu yanke hukunci game da barnar da ta faru ba, za mu iya wucewa zuwa wancan bangaren da wuri - {textend} kuma mu sami waraka da ƙarfi sosai fiye da yadda muke tsammani. Scars da duk. Warkar.

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