Yadda Rock Climber Emily Harrington ke ba da tsoro don isa Sabuwar Heights

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Gymnast, dancer, da mai tseren kankara a duk lokacin ƙuruciyarta, Emily Harrington ba baƙo ba ce don gwada iyawar iyawar ta ta jiki ko ɗaukar haɗari. Amma sai da ta kai shekara 10, lokacin da ta hau wani katangar dutse mai tsayi, mai 'yanci, ta fara jin tsoro sosai.

Harrington ya ce "Jin iska a ƙarƙashin ƙafafuna yana da ban tsoro da gaske, amma a lokaci guda, an jawo ni ga wannan yanayin ta wata hanya," in ji Harrington. "Ina jin na ji kamar kalubale ne."

Wancan hawan farko na bugun zuciya a Boulder, Colorado ya ƙone sha'awar ta don hawa kyauta, wasa inda 'yan wasa ke hawa bango ta amfani da hannayensu da ƙafafunsu kawai, tare da babban igiya da ɗamarar kugu don kama su idan sun faɗi. A farkon shekarun aikin hawanta, Harrington ta zama zakara na Amurka sau biyar don hawan wasanni kuma ta sami matsayi a kan dandalin gasar cin kofin duniya ta 2005 na Ƙungiyar Wasanni ta Duniya. Amma 'yar shekaru 34 a yanzu ta ce ba ta taba jin tsoro ba game da yiwuwar fadowa daga kan dutse ko kuma ta ji mummunan rauni. Maimakon haka, ta yi bayanin cewa tsoron ta ya samo asali ne daga fallasawa-jin cewa ƙasa ta yi nisa-kuma, har ma fiye da haka, tsammanin gazawa.

Harrington ya ce "Na yi gwagwarmaya da ra'ayin cewa ina jin tsoro." "Koyaushe ina dukan kaina a kan hakan. Daga ƙarshe, na shawo kan tsoro na farko saboda na fara yin gasar hawa hawa, amma ina tsammanin sha'awar yin nasara da samun nasara a waɗannan gasa ya wuce tsoro da damuwa ta wata hanya." (Mai Dangantaka: Fuskantar Tsorona A ƙarshe Ya Taimaka Na Cigaba da Damuwa Na.)

Shekaru biyar da suka gabata, Harrington ta shirya don ɗaukar hawanta zuwa mataki na gaba kuma ta saita burinta don cin nasara kan sanannen El Capitan, wani dutsen dutse mai tsayi 3,000 a cikin Yosemite National Park. A lokacin ne ainihin haɗarin wasan - na samun mummunan rauni ko ma mutuwa - ya zama na gaske. "Na kafa wa kaina wannan babban buri wanda ban yi tsammanin da gaske zai yiwu ba, kuma na yi matukar firgita har ma in gwada shi kuma ina son ya zama cikakke," in ji ta. "Amma sai na fahimci cewa ba zai taɓa zama cikakke ba." (BTW, kasancewa mai kamala a cikin dakin motsa jiki ya zo tare da manyan matsaloli.)

A wannan lokacin ne Harrington ta ce tunaninta na tsoro ya canza.Ta ce ta gano cewa tsoro ba wani abin kunya ba ne ko kuma "a ci nasara," amma a'a, ɗan adam ne, wanda ya kamata a yarda da shi. "Tsoro kawai ya kasance a cikin mu, kuma ina tsammanin yana da ɗan illa ga jin kowane irin abin kunya a kusa da shi," in ji ta. "Saboda haka, maimakon in yi ƙoƙari in doke tsoro na, sai na fara gane shi da kuma dalilin da ya sa ya kasance, sa'an nan kuma ɗaukar matakai don yin aiki da shi, kuma a wata hanya, yi amfani da shi a matsayin karfi."

Don haka, yaya wannan “ya yarda da tsoro kuma ya aikata ta kowane hali” ya fassara zuwa cikin ainihin duniya, lokacin da Harrington ke mil sama da ƙasa yayin hawa kyauta? Duk yana halatta waɗancan abubuwan, sannan yin matakan jariri - a zahiri da a alamance - don buga taron a hankali, in ji ta. "Yana kama da nemo iyakar ku kuma da ƙyar ya wuce ta kowane lokaci har sai kun kai ga burin," in ji ta. "Sau da yawa, ina tsammanin muna saita manufofin kuma suna da girma sosai kuma har yanzu ba za a iya isa ba, amma idan kun karya shi zuwa ƙananan girma, yana da ɗan sauƙin fahimta." (Masu Alaka: Kurakurai guda 3 da mutane suke yi Lokacin da ake kafa Maƙasudin Jiyya, A cewar Jen Widerstrom)

Amma ko da Harrington ba za a iya cin nasara ba - wani abu da aka tabbatar a bara lokacin da ta faɗi ƙafa 30 a lokacin ƙoƙarinta na uku na cin nasarar El Capitan, ta kai ta asibiti tare da rauni da rauni na kashin baya. Babban mai ba da gudummawa ga faɗuwar faɗuwa: Harrington ya zama mai daɗi sosai, kuma ya cika gaba, in ji ta. Ta kara da cewa "ban ji tsoro ba." "Tabbas hakan ya sa na sake yin la'akari da matsayina na juriya na kasada tare da gano lokacin da zan koma baya da kuma yadda zan canza wannan don gaba."

Ya yi aiki: A watan Nuwamba, Harrington ya gayyaci El Capitan, ta zama mace ta farko da ta sami 'yancin hawa hanyar ƙofar Golden a cikin ƙasa da awanni 24. Samun duk ƙwarewar da ake buƙata, dacewa, da horo-gami da ɗan sa'a-ya taimaka mata ta magance dabbar a wannan shekara, amma Harrington galibi yana yin alƙawarin nasarorin da ta samu na shekarun da suka gabata har zuwa wannan hanyar don tsoro. "Ina tsammanin abin da ya taimake ni in yi shi ne in tsaya tare da hawan gwaninta," in ji ta. "Ya ba ni damar gwada abubuwan da da farko na iya zama kamar ba za su yiwu ba, wataƙila ɗan ƙaramin ƙarfi ne, kuma kawai ci gaba da gwada su saboda ƙwarewa ce mai kyau da gwaji mai sanyi a cikin binciken motsin ɗan adam."

Kuma wannan binciken-rai da ci gaban mutum ne ke zuwa tare da rungumar tsoro - ba shahara ko lakabi ba - shine ya sa Harrington ya kai sabon matsayi a yau. "Ban taɓa tashi da niyyar samun nasara ba, kawai ina so in sami manufa mai ban sha'awa kuma in ga yadda abin ya kasance," in ji ta. "Amma daya daga cikin dalilan da nake hawa shine in yi tunani mai zurfi game da abubuwa kamar hadari da nau'ikan haɗarin da nake son ɗauka. Kuma ina tsammanin abin da na fahimta tsawon shekaru shine cewa na fi iyawa da yawa. fiye da yadda nake tunani."

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